All your attempts to ease some pain
Too many pills, a bit more cocaine
But in the end it was all in vain
You just added more addictions
And you collapsed on too many floors
And died a death at bathroom doors
It just got worse than ever before
You're far beyond your former limits now

But time can never heal
All the hurt and harm you've caused
But I'm fine for now,
And so glad you never asked

You're not my fault, at least we'll forget
You want destruction, so kill yourself instead
You're not my fault, at least we'll forget
You're my dysfunction, get out of my head

And all your phrases sound the same
You crave their love, you need some fame
There's always someone else to blame
You're desperate for attention
And things repeat and nothing's changed
And every fortune prearranged
You're almost covered and rather strange to me

It's not unfair to see
How you turned into someone else
And I'm fine for now
And I'm glad you never asked

If you could see what I can see…
If you could feel the pain…

So I play along and I stand aside
And I turn away, try not to collide
With the strength to fear. Am I paranoid?
‘Cause it doesn't feel like I'm yet destroyed
And I cannot move but I want to leave
Away from simple goals I can never achieve
Now you look to me. But what is your plan?
Is it good enough? What am I waiting for?
For gods? For escape?
Or just a way to guide me out?
Of this… of here? Still I just want to kill them all…

But all that my hell comprises
Benevolent compromises
And I really despise you
Bad enough not to fuck it up
What's with your cliched surprises?
And where is your plain advice right now?
Oh, I really despise you
Bad enough not to fuck it up

And I watch my steps, creeping carefully
Make my frozen heart beat in your frequency
What's the next move you'll make?
I'm left in the dark
As if all the weight will become a spark
To ignite a flame that could burn them down
And no backup left when I turn around
It's not all on me, but my mind is set
And it brought us here
To the place where it all commenced
No gods, no escape
And not a way to lead us out
Of this… Of here. Now I just want to kill them all…

Your hazy image on the wall, its watching me
Here in my mind, I cannot see
Drifting off the course, apparently
I have no strength to disagree
And everyone is filled with chemicals
To get some sleep, or something else
But I don't want to wake them up again
Just let it all pass…

I'm not here to find the careless sense anymore
I'm not here to try to fit into those worlds that I don't belong

Get it all - then break it
How could you sink down, so low
This pretty life - You've faked it
So that you'll never be left alone
But everything is waste now
So tell me why you don't know
This pretty life - a shattered vow
And nothing left to blow…

And everyone would try so many things
Like angels fly, with broken wings
Needing so much time to finalize
Their self-portrait, mutating lies
Sifting through ruins, crushed by themselves
No leftovers for someday else
Seizing all remains as long as they can…

I'm not here to find the careless sense anymore
I'm not here to try to fit into those worlds that I don't belong

Get it all - then break it
How could you sink down, so low
This pretty life - You've faked it
So that you'll never be left alone
But everything is waste now
So tell me why you don't know
This pretty life - a shattered vow
And nothing left to blow…

(And nothings left to blow…)
(Nothings left to blow…)

Get it all - then break it
How could you sink down, so low
This pretty life - You've faked it
So that you'll never be left alone
But everything is waste now
So tell me why you don't know
This pretty life - a shattered vow
And nothing left to blow…

Nothings left to blow…

These heavy clouds
They're raining down on you and me
And everything seems unbearable
If you are waiting for that actual moment…
It's long since past, you see?
I don't know what I was waiting for

Then you said,
‘There are some days
When I just want to leave, I want to run away
Then I realise that my own feet
Will not carry me

It's time to go and now I just want you to know
That I would love to sense you're here
Because the rest proved insincere
Let's let them stand, backs to the wall
They'll only watch us as we fall
And I don't care how we survive
If there's a chance we could arrive somewhere

I don't want to blame
My own mistakes on someone else
And I don't want to forget my past
So will you come with me and stay
Or step aside and clear the way
Instead of wasting so much time

‘Cause you said,
‘There are some days
When I just want to leave, I want to run away
Then I realise that my own feet
Will not carry me

Warum reißt du dich nicht zusammen?
Das ist doch alles halb so schlimm!
Willst du nicht mal darüber reden?
Es geht vorüber, immerhin
Jetzt wart' mal auf den nächsten Tag
Und dann wird alles besser aussehen!
Warum fragst du nicht einfach?
Warum willst du schon gehen?
Warum willst du das denn nicht sehen?

Es geht dich (doch) einen Scheiß an, was ich denk'
Und falls du es noch nicht weißt,
Du drehst dich doch selbst im Kreis
Scher' dich um deinen eigenen Scheiß, Mann!
Es geht dich (doch) einen scheiß an, wer ich bin
Und falls du es noch nicht weißt,
Ich habe keinen preis,
Kümmer' dich um deinen eigenen scheiß, Mann!

Jetzt komm' doch erst mal wieder runter
Und setz dich hin und sei entspannt
Und ich erklär' dir deine wunden
Geh durch die Tür, nicht durch die Wand!
Du wirst schon sehen, bald kommt der Tag,
An dem der Himmel wieder blau ist,
Also hab dich nicht so!
Es muss doch weitergehen
Warum willst du das denn nicht sehen?

Kannst du dir vorstellen, wie das nervt?
Und wie entsetzlich anstrengend das ist?
Kannst du dir vorstellen, wie das nervt?
Kannst du dir vorstellen, dass du nervst?

I won't let you into my head,
I won't let you fuel my anger
So many tears left unshed,
What if I raised the anchor?
And all those words in a line
Prepare to spread the poison
Without a chance to confine
What's made us strong, destroys us

You never let me forget
There's never been a reason
For any candid regrets
There's no time for smiles and pleasing
I got used to falsehood and lies
It's not worth the fight or wrangle
Perspective sometimes implies
A view from a different angle

Fears uncontrolled… so do what you're told
And keep yourself down and watch me as I drown
It's all in your sight, but you're blinded by the night
So I'll switch off the light

'Cause this is who you are
And this is how you fall
And this is what you get
I wish we'd never met
'Cause it's just who you are
You looked stronger from afar
And this is how you crawl
'Cause that's just who you are

I won't let you fuck with my brain
I don't care if you will hate me
'Cause I'll break your rules anyway
'Cause I stopped pursuing you lately
I just want you out of my mind
But I never will forget you
You wanted me to resign
You know, I nearly let you win

Another wasted campaign
To show off and impress
Some random folk who just hang out
Dropping names of celebrities
Nobody even knows
But you're best friends with each and every one
Is it a side effect of your addiction
Or just a sign of insecurity…
I don't care if you want to sell yourself as the victim
Accusing everybody else

But you're trying too hard
And you're talking too much
And you act like a fool for no reason
Are you afraid that the world will keep turning
Without your own ideas on everything?
You're trying too hard
And you keep talking too much
And then you're now breaking down for no reason
You crave a little attention,
‘Cause nobody likes you
For being the way that you are

So do you actually seek out compassion
Or are you just a nasty regular prat?
Covering identity with dissatisfaction
And making everyone else miserable
Is this your strategy to gain some friends
Or to force the people around
Enjoy the time spent with you,
They can't avoid your presence
Your ego's crushed in the grime

Another kick in the face…
And this pain in your head…
Again you're lost in the chase
You always pick up the dirt
When you try to be smart
But in the end you'll get hurt
And it's not okay with you
It is really not okay
But you've got used to losing
The things you wanted the most

Then you implode again
With every word you kept in mind
‘Cause it's hard enough
To duck down from explosions everywhere
You implode again
And all the plans you kept in mind
Will only fall apart
And move out of your reach
And leave you (behind)

Things you tried to forget
And erase from your brain
Keep returning instead
And when they push you around
You'll respond with a smile while you die on the ground
And it's not okay with you
It is really not okay
But you got so tired of losing
Everything you want the most

The cuts – so deep, you fall alone
You cannot keep what you don't own
Unless you sleep and dream alone
The cuts – so deep, you fall alone
You're gonna weep and die alone

It's the light that feels so compromising
I would think that it's the least surprising
The clearest view that could not
Hide away the dirt in the dark spots
And you just said that it's alright
Above all, everything's gonna be fine
And then you're waiting patiently
For anybody to agree

It's time. But you just stand there, talking
Boring all the people you've just brought in
A picture, most insignificantly
And is there nowhere else to be?

You noticed I'm failing
But I knew you were flailing
In the filth you have left for me
But it's worthless if you don't see

Go, leave it! If you can't see the mistake
Just leave it! You never give what it takes
You think you're strong,
But will your breath last longer?
So close your eyes and run – your life is golden

If life needs different circumstances
After all, we missed the chances
To change it for the better or even for the worse

But all the time… You noticed I'm failing
But I knew you were flailing
In the filth you have left for me
But it's worthless if you don't see

I feel like I'm high above the earth
And distance means that my voice remains unheard
And of all the smooth ways I could have chosen
Over the years when I've been frozen
I always picked the one
That would lead me further away

Whenever I tried to climb up the wall
To catch a clearer glimpse, I was not afraid to fall
And of all the right words I could have spoken
Over the years when I was broken
I always picked the ones
That would lead me further away

And if my life appears so small
It's where I still belong
There's not a thing I could recall
I'm not dividing right from wrong
And if I fall again
Then I'm inclined to stay right down
‘Cause in the end all that I want
Is to wish myself away

With every turmoil in my head
That I have lost, I never felt like I was dead
And of all the cool things I could have dreamt of
Over the years, I smelt your scent, I only dreamt of you
And it leads me further away…

I don't want to make this right
I don't want to get inside
I never felt so left alone by anyone
I do not choose to fight
But stay out of the light
To reach out of the dark and try to find you there again