Diorama - Her Liquid Arms (2001)

And still - the men - chatted - pleasantly, and smiled --- Was it possible -
they heard not? - Almighty God! - no, no? They heard! - they suspected! -
they KNEW! - they were making a mockery of my horror! - this I thought,
and this I think --- But anything was better than this agony!
Anything was more tolerable than this derision!
I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer!
I felt that I must scream or die!

  • and now - again - hark!
    louder! louder! louder! LOUDER!
    "Villains!"
    "dissemble no more! I admit the deed!
  • tear up the planks!
    -- here, here! -
    it is the beating of his hideous heart!"

They say your ailing doves get caught
They say her peace will make you weak
They now obtain your words by fraud
And modulate them as they speak

Beyond her walls I shatter mine
Towards her charming lies I crawl
Her heart got sore as she found mine
Into her liquid arms I fall

Her noiseless treads delight my ears
I bury dreams along her shore
In radiant black her gliding tears
Under her surface so much more

Beyond her walls I shatter mine
Towards her charming lies I crawl
Her heart got sore as she found mine
Into her liquid arms I fall

Finally contented soul
now did you lacerate
me long enough

While all enticing secrets
were slowly whispering
'unearthly love'

The words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again

Like roses your drugs in bloom
in psychic beauty
my frantic heart

I thought I saw you gloating over
my private inferno
you owe me answers

The words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again

The nights and days - in wasteful void
the glints of hope - as small defense
the smiles I faked - the blood I shed
my drifts of smoke - my 3 letter friends

The words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again

Life-exhaling sleep petrified in marbleized composure
As I drown in her calm breathing
I start to live beyond her notions
Faking balance - under wings of

Bright-inspiring dark
That is never to be brightened
Sphinx-like stupid I surrender
Poets comment poets never change
Paralyzed with sadness here I am

Carry me - anywhere and she'll be waiting
Let me be - resting by her patiently and
Maybe she - will shatter all the truth inside my
Agony - a promised word to save the silence

Life-inhaling sleep
And above me heavens full of roses
Full of orchids glittering in the moonlight
Dream-absorbing stars reflect in her eyes
Leave me very restless

Carry me - anywhere and she'll be waiting
Let me be - resting by her patiently and
Maybe she - will shatter all the truth inside my
Agony - a promised word to save the silence

Life-recovering sleep
Reveling in self-contained illusions
Illusive flowers obey the dawn
Is it my way ramifying before me
Paralyzed with sadness here I am

Carry me - anywhere and she'll be waiting
Let me be - resting by her patiently and
Maybe she - will shatter all the truth inside my
Agony - a promised word to save the silence

Here you are with your story
And no one wants to hear
Here you are with your fiction
And no one wants to see
Except for you

And your light will it shine on
Shine for you and me
And your light will it shine on
Shine for you and me

And your sad unknown islands
Waiting for your thoughts
On the horizon
And your vacant eyes beside me
Just a breath away
Won't return my gaze

Here you are with your story
And no one wants to hear
Here you are with your fiction
And no one wants to see
Except for you

And your light will it shine on
Shine for you and me
And your light will it shine on
Shine for you and me

And your liberation
And your undulating dance
In tantalizing slowness
And your distance that you chose
Tell me did you find
All your explanations inside your
Diorama

And your once invented gray
Genius-like appearance
Almost succeeded
And your soundless cries for more
Anti-life will die
Away unheeded

And your light will it shine on

(Away - stone by stone
Cure - forgotten fever)

Alive
Within another brain
Within another maze
A wonderful donation

I'll throw it away
Stone by stone
Sit down and cure
Forgotten fever

Time - isn't everybody equal?
Time - doesn't every angel fall?

Try
To overcome your pride
Confide in logical words
From false believers

Who cares?
For you and I will once
Flutter in these winds of scorn
While my little lake is so calm

Time - isn't everybody equal?
Time - doesn't every angel fall?
Time - isn't everybody equal?
Time - doesn't heal your wounds at all!

How could you know
I trust in friends that lie
I'm hunting shadows at night
While you can't stay awake

I'll throw it away
Stone by stone
Sit down and cure
Forgotten fever

Time!

Time - isn't everybody equal?
Time - doesn't every angel fall?
Time - isn't everybody equal?
Time - doesn't heal your wounds at all!

Time - isn't everybody equal?
Time - did you notice me at all?

I came to stop the waves with all my might
The sea is bound to keep me warm tonight
Dissolved into her tears I fill my head
With all the underwater words she said

Embittered skies bejeweled with stars invite
The sea is bound to take me home tonight
In magnetizing shades surreal her gloom
Leaves my adoring eyes in faint delight

Does she share your silence
As if she cared
She might know your violence
From anywhere

Call me unbalanced insincere insane
My frowning face will still absorb her rain
I came to stop the waves with all my might
The sea is bound to keep me warm tonight

Does she share your silence
As if she cared
She might know your violence
From anywhere

Da dies so ist, legt der Galeriebesucher
das gesicht auf die Brüstung
und im Schlußmarsch in einem
schweren Traum versinkend weint er…

The dream flew down
Down from heaven's patience
To hope with us for miracles

Exorcise our strong beliefs
Give motives to our murders
And steal with us our miracles

Photo-sensitized
We're in a daze of glory
And smiling bravely through our tears

In our gleaming eyes we feel now
From what we were distracted
And start to change our miracles

Where are the suns
The violent storms we pray for
We all are out there
As we embrace our exile

We all are statues
And cannot turn to stone
We all are out there
Our little islands we call home

We are the suns
The violent storms we pray for
We all are out there
As we embrace our exile

Relieve our minds
Carry on to save our angels
As we indulge our glowing pride

Create our lives
Direct us all again to paradise
And let us sleep in cooling winds

In our closing eyes we see now
From what we were rejected
And start to dream of miracles

…im Schlußmarsch in einem schweren Traum versinkend
weint er ohne es zu wissen

Sehnsucht schwer am Boden
Händeringend vor dem Sturm
Gedanken stumm von Blindheit
Ziehen die Wolken vorbei

Das Laeuten in der Ferne
Wie ein leiser Gruß der Sterne
Birgt Erinnerung an Ewigkeit
An Himmelstod

Lächeln sanfte Rückkehr
Tränenlos versinkend
Schau zurück friedvoll
Wenn die Dämmerung erwacht

Vieles bleibt vergessen
Verschwommen und zerschellt
An den leichten Momenten
Dem Wellenschlage gleich

Überm Meer

Das Meer verlassen über dem Ursprung des Seins
Tauch in das Meer laß Dich treiben
Es ist Jahre her

Das Meer verlassen über dem Ursprung des Seins
Tauch in das Meer laß Dich schweben
Es ist Jahre her

Laß Dich fallen in bodenlose Tiefen
Ruhe und Wehmut umgeben Dich leise
Sieh Dich fliegen doch Deine Flügel
Sind müd und schwer überm Meer

Sehnsucht schwer am Boden
Händeringend vor dem Sturm
Dein Schweigen wird mir fehlen
Und in Endlichkeit erwacht

Das Meer verlassen über mit dem Ursprung des Seins
Tauch in das Meer laß Dich treiben
Es ist Jahre her

Das Meer verlassen über dem Ursprung des Seins
Tauch in das Meer laß Dich schweben
Es ist Jahre her

Define your demon and be precise
Impending wars now sharpen your eyes
Regeneration from now to then
For time will limit itself again

My aim -disprove you- lacks irony
Your wisdom even extends to me
Are you nervous needless to say
What's black tomorrow is pale today

Give wings to my words and let them fly
To spheres I know of and wonder why
Dumb words in silence might now confess
You had hoped for nothing and still got less

Draw a picture in case it helps
Of all vague faces I call myself
Give it details turn it real
I can't remember how colors feel

I'll give you shelter I'll give you peace
A handful water instead of seas
For any reason that is unfair
And for a smile that I'll never share

I'll give you shelter I'll give you peace
A handful water instead of seas
For any reason that is unfair
And for a smile that I'll never share

Draw a picture in case it helps
Of all vague faces I call myself
Give it details turn it real
I can't remember how colors feel

Don't give up